Blog Entry #3

Decorators block should be a recognised medical condition. A blog about writing. A blog about mental health (sort of). GET IN!!!! I am posting for the second week in a row. I am celebrating that fact. GET IN!!!! *punches air in some sort of unnecessary over-the-top fashion* Let’s get the elephant in the room out of the way first; my mental health has been generally better, more stable, and I’m having a particularly good week. I’m a touch more focused, relaxed and generally pretty chilled (at least for the last two days). It’s always a good sign when I find myself laughing at my own jokes or daft little things at work. At one point this week I spent the best part of five minutes trying to convince my colleague to grow a moustache, I also chuckled uncontrollably when the person next to me was asked if another person was joining the meeting and their response was “he’s eating a sausage”. Innuendo bingo at its best. I’m excited because on Saturday I do my first ever writing course (thanks to Scriptwriting North). I’m not nervous, well, ok, maybe I’m slightly nervous but in an expected way. It’s a healthy combination of nerves and excitement; a feeling I’ve not…

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Blog Entry #2

It’s not about the fall, it’s about how you get back up. A blog about writing. A blog about mental health (sort of). I said I would “try” to post every week about what I had been doing on my journey to, hopefully, make my life less ordinary by forging a new career from writing. Well guess what? I fell at the first bloody step. Well guess what again? I am not going to let it get me down, nor am I going to beat myself up about having missed a couple of weeks early on. So, what happened? Mental health; that’s what happened. I said this wasn’t necessarily going to be a blog about mental health. Yeah, I might have to revise that statement slightly. I’ve had a tough few weeks, which started around the time of my very first post. At the zenith of an adrenaline fueled ‘high’ I had finally plucked up the courage to start this blog and commit to my five-year plan. However, once the adrenaline has chewed you up and spit you out, the ‘comedown’ is a fucking bastard. Seriously. There are no other words to describe it, at least none that I feel accurately articulate that feeling. It can be a…

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Blog Entry #1

People talk about “five-year plans”. Welcome to mine. A blog about writing. A blog about mental health (sort of). It’s 2018. I’m 37 and I’m starting a blog. What on earth am I doing? I should have started this 10 years ago, perhaps better still 15 years ago when youthful exuberance would have pushed me through the hardest days when now anxiety, stress and depression take over. It’s funny, now that I’m not as young I’m not so self-assured. My life has changed in so many ways. Now is the time to change it for good though, it’s time to make my life less ordinary. It’s not 15 years ago though. I’m not 22 years old anymore. I’m approaching 40 and I’m either on the verge of a classic mid-life crisis or I’m at a mid-life renaissance. After two years of mental health difficulties (correction: to be honest with myself, it’s probably more like four years) the time has come to change it up; I’m setting out on a new path, a completely new direction. If I start to sail down this river now then I have the chance to live the next half of my life doing things that I want to do, not simply doing things…

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